Remember those? From old Saturday Night Live? They were hilarious! I don't know why that seemed fitting for my title. I've been up for a few hours now. After Miguel left early this morning, I couldn't go back to sleep. So instead of just laying in bed wasting time, I decided to get up and get as much of my chores done as I could without making too much noise and waking Mikey. I might regret it later, but maybe then I can get Mikey to nap with me :)
I was just sitting here thinking when I realized how quiet it was and how I could hear my own thoughts and just "be". I'm almost always surrounded by noise...compliments of Mikey...lol...I think this is what I need...or need more of..."me time" minus all the noise and "Mommy can I have"s...I know that when he goes off to school, I will miss him like CRAZY, but maybe I will also regain some of my sanity! I've been doing alot of thinking lately...well, I'm ALWAYS thinking...that's one of my faults and I have this "nagging feeling" that some big changes are long overdue. Sitting here in the quiet...where I can actually form a thought or a complete sentence in my head...some things become very clear. I think I have lost myself...in being a mother and sitting on the sidelines...and I think it's time I bring myself back into the foreground. I need to put myself first because God knows if I don't, no one else will. Anywho....just had to ramble on for a bit and put this stuff down....back to your regularly scheduled program....
