Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Deep Thoughts by Jack Handy....

Remember those? From old Saturday Night Live? They were hilarious! I don't know why that seemed fitting for my title. I've been up for a few hours now. After Miguel left early this morning, I couldn't go back to sleep. So instead of just laying in bed wasting time, I decided to get up and get as much of my chores done as I could without making too much noise and waking Mikey. I might regret it later, but maybe then I can get Mikey to nap with me :)
I was just sitting here thinking when I realized how quiet it was and how I could hear my own thoughts and just "be". I'm almost always surrounded by noise...compliments of Mikey...lol...I think this is what I need...or need more of..."me time" minus all the noise and "Mommy can I have"s...I know that when he goes off to school, I will miss him like CRAZY, but maybe I will also regain some of my sanity! I've been doing alot of thinking lately...well, I'm ALWAYS thinking...that's one of my faults and I have this "nagging feeling" that some big changes are long overdue. Sitting here in the quiet...where I can actually form a thought or a complete sentence in my head...some things become very clear. I think I have lost myself...in being a mother and sitting on the sidelines...and I think it's time I bring myself back into the foreground. I need to put myself first because God knows if I don't, no one else will. Anywho....just had to ramble on for a bit and put this stuff down....back to your regularly scheduled program....

5 comments:

MICHELLE said...

You know I'm all for putting yourself first :) I think sometimes people just like to please others & keep the peace so they sacrifice things. Then you just get to that point... *shrugs* Start doing you and you'll definitely feel free (even with the craziness!) and way happier :)

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Staceye said...

Hey Lal...just checking in for the challenge! have a good day!

Stacey

Michelle said...

I completely know what you mean by losing yourself. I have been a mother for almost 21 years... 21 years of putting everyone else first. I enjoy those early mornings sometimes too!! ;)

shopgirlaudi said...

LOL...remember when we were younger and we would wait up for Saturday Night Live, but we'd be all sleepy...LOL. That Jack Handy thing was hilarious!!!

I have to be SO grateful for my alone time. I'd go nuts without it. It's gonna be a long summer:(

Karen Lee said...

Hey Lal enjoy them now, even with the no time for yourself thing you have goin' on. They grow up so, so fast. Mine are 32, 29 & 20 and its seems like only yesterday they were buggin' the heck out of me!! Now I have plenty of alone time. Its not that much fun!

hugs, Karen Lee