My Cup Runneth Over...

Elijah and I were having a conversation this afternoon while I was washing dishes...something about age and how time goes by so fast and one day you're 2 then you're 12. And I said that I knew just what he meant and I told him how I knew I was almost 40 (YIKES), but that inside I didn't always feel like a grown up, kwim? Sometimes, it's like I step back...not literally..and think to myself "wow, I'm almost 40, I'm a MOM, I have 2 little people to be responsible for, I have bills to pay" ect, ect. Anyway, he says that he's glad I'm not like other moms because he can talk to me and then he goes on to say that I am his best friend. SIGH! My heart melted! I really wanted to cry, but didn't want to look like the big sap that I am! lol I swear, I just LOVE that kid! He is just SO amazing and kind and loving and talented and beautiful and I can't believe that God chose ME to be his mommy! I am so very blessed! Later at night, I was laying in bed with Mikey waiting for him to fall asleep and now the kids are sharing a room so it has become a "thing" that while we are laying there "trying" to get them to fall asleep, we are going back and forth talking about this and that, saying our good nights and "I love you"s, Lij is doing his "voices" and cracking jokes and making us laugh. And Mikey is saying his crazy, off the wall things that is just typical Mikey. Anyway, tonight while all of this was going on, I'm laying there listening to all the chatter and I am overcome with a huge sense of thankfulness (is that a word, did I spell that right?) Thankful that my two boys are safe and healthy and warm in their beds. That we are all together even if it's a little crowded. That even though they drive me up a wall at times with their bickering, that they are here and they are mine. And I lay there smiling to myself wanting to stay in that moment for as long as I could. I love my boys so much and I just can't imagine what my life would be like were I not a mother. It's truly a calling and I am thankful to God for allowing me this wonderful gift :)